It's hard to find words sometimes. Last night, about half an hour from where I live, 12 people were murdered. More will probably die from their injuries. The only thing they did was go to a movie and now they're gone.
I was in shock the first few minutes after I heard the news. We've had so many tragedies lately here in Colorado and the numbness hardly wears off before something else happens. It's too much to bear. You have to find a way to stop thinking about it, at least for a little while. But really, it's impossible to forget when the onslaught feels ceaseless and senseless. You don't know what to think anymore.
But I know one thing for sure. I never want to be one of those people who can just shrug it off and go on about their lives and say, "Meh, why should I feel bad about it? I didn't do it and neither did anyone else I know. Pass me the Cheez Whiz."
Right now I feel hopeless and helpless and disgusted, but I'll take that over feeling nothing at all. When we stop feeling, we stop being human. Then, we stop trying to find ways to make this kind of thing never happen again. Maybe that's just me pissing in the ocean but it's all I've got.
I have work piling up, a dog to get to the vet, and carpet that hasn't been vacuumed in so long, stuff is starting to grow in it. But tonight, I'll wind some yarn and cast on something and make a few cocktails, and try not to make sense of any of it while I feel my grief for those families.
Do something you love today. And send some good thoughts to Colorado. We can use them.
My daughter and I were stuck in a traffic jam this afternoon when we heard this dreadful news. There ARE no words - it is beyond reason and belief. We had time and space and safety in which to pause and talk quietly and send our prayers to CO.ReplyDelete
Stay safe my friend. You have a wonderful heart.
It was shocking to me, too. I thought, since I have moved to the US we have had Columbine, 9/11, the fires, several more tragedies I can't even recall, and now this. I was actually asking myself why I live here.ReplyDelete
On another note. I thought about you last week while visiting a yarn store in Ouray. The owner is the nicest lady and she sells yak yarn from her neighbors animals. She had a pattern in her store that I absolutely loved. Sure enough I forgot the name by now.
I echo you sentiments Susan. Sad day in ColoradoReplyDelete
It was lovely meeting you last week at the macaron cooking class. I hope we can connect again in the future since we are literally neighbors.
It is tragic news and I haven't been able to stray away from the TV for long. I feel close to Colorado, and yet so far away. I worked at University Hospital for years. I know where the theater is. I can "feel" the hurt, even now that I live in Calgary. Colorado has had a rough year. I hope that the victims of this shooting and those affected by the fires can find some strength to move forward. For the rest of us, we can only hold them in our thoughts and prayers.
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It's hard to know even what to say. I can only let my family and friends know how much I love them and they mean to me. My heart goes out to all those families touched by this tragedy.ReplyDelete
Our hearts and peaceful thoughts are with your community right now.ReplyDelete
- Lisa C (grippingyarn)
Missing you. I hope you're doing okay. I'm back from dead...mostly. Blogging once in a awhile, but always knitting.ReplyDelete